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I close my eyes and float away
Try and forget about today
Coz in my dreams I feel so free
Not tied in knots by what I cannot be

The real me, the real me
You won’t see the real me
The real me, the real me
You can’t see the real me

My silent room can’t come too soon
No acting like I hung the moon
That smile I smile sometimes ain’t real
I’m faking feelings that I just can’t feel

The real me, the real me
You won’t see the real me
The real me, the real me
You can’t see the real me

Coz now I’m who I wanna be
Fearless and carefree
With all those flaws you don’t ever see
Not scared to show the real me

The real me, the real me
You won’t see the real me
The real me, the real me
You won’t see the real me
The real me
Coz this is the real me

With every passing rainy day
Your life begins to drift away
From this girl who you said you loved
You never call, you never write
It’s not that hard to get it right
And now this soul has suffered enough

And though you’re not here
You still crush all my dreams like before
But I won’t live in fear
That you’ll come knock me down even more

You can’t see that I’m moving on
And soon my feelings will be gone
As I build bricks all up around my heart
You’re words aren’t true, you just don’t care
But I’ve learned to live like you’re not there
Coz I’m stronger when we are apart

And though you’re not here
You still crush all my dreams like before
But I won’t live in fear
That you’ll come knock me down even more

The day will come you’ll wonder why
I see your face but I don’t cry
I’ll stop calling your name out loud
You’ll pay the price you don’t value me
I’ll kick down walls till I am free
And you’re just a face in the crowd

And though you’re not here
You still crush all my dreams like before
But I won’t live in fear
That you’ll come knock me down even more

Though you’re not here
You still crush all my dreams like before
But I won’t live in fear
That you’ll come knock me down
Oh you’ll come knock me down
Yes you’ll come knock me down even more

Come near and stare at the whites of my eyes
I have that strength I know you despise
Most people run when they’re gripped by fear

I’m gonna stay here
I know I belong here
So just don’t come near me
Coz here’s what you can’t see
Is I’m gonna stay here

Yeah I’m gonna
Yeah I’m gonna
Yeah I’m gonna
Yeah I’m gonna stay here

You think I’ll break when the pressure is on
But hey you just couldn’t be more wrong
Poisoned words won’t make me disappear

I’m gonna stay here
I know I belong here
So just don’t come near me
Coz here’s what you can’t see
Is I’m gonna stay here

Yeah I’m gonna
Yeah I’m gonna
Yeah I’m gonna
Yeah I’m gonna stay here

You laugh at me so I won’t hang around
You can’t just push and think I’ll stay down
I’ve shed my tears so just read me clear

I’m gonna stay here
I know I belong here
So just don’t come near me
Coz here’s what you can’t see
Is I’m gonna stay here

Yeah I’m gonna
Yeah I’m gonna
Yeah I’m gonna
Yeah I’m gonna stay here
Yeah I’m gonna

Trying to find you in the deep dark night
This morning came but there was still no light
Just don’t know why you won’t pick up the phone
I’m so far away and I’m all alone

I’m going home, home tonight
Going home, home tonight
This place I’m in just never felt that right
Going home, home tonight

So many days I wish I’d shared with you
All these feelings that I thought you knew
A million words that I just left unsaid
Bundles of letters that never got read

I’m going home, home tonight
Going home, home tonight
This place I’m in just never felt that right
Going home, home tonight

When I’m with you my whole world makes sense
My walls come down and there is no pretence
No stinging cheeks from all the tears I’ve shed
No nights of sadness sobbing in my bed

I’m going home, home tonight
Going home, home tonight
This place I’m in just never felt that right
Going home, home tonight

And I’ve made it home, home tonight
Made it home, home tonight
Same streets, same faces that I’ve always known
Made it home, home sweet home

Same streets, same faces that I’ve always known
Made it home, home sweet home
Home sweet home

I fall asleep at night
Knowing no matter what I say
All of my tomorrows
Will be just like yesterday

You think you’re something, something, something
And I’m just nothing, nothing, nothing
Your smiles just hide your intentions
Just hide your intentions
Coz I’m not nothing, nothing, nothing
Yeah I am something, something, something
I see through all of your pretensions
All of your pretensions

A tear carves out a path
In my already battered heart
And every single silence
Just rips my scary world apart

You think you’re something, something, something
And I’m just nothing, nothing, nothing
Your smiles just hide your intentions
Just hide your intentions
Coz I’m not nothing, nothing, nothing
Yeah I am something, something, something
I see through all of your pretensions
All of your pretensions

I sit alone and wonder
If maybe someone might see me
For the frightened girl I am
Not the girl that I should be

You think you’re something, something, something
And I’m just nothing, nothing, nothing
Your smiles just hide your intentions
Just hide your intentions
Coz I’m not nothing, nothing, nothing
Yeah I am something, something, something
I see through all of your pretensions
All of your pretensions

Am I something, something, something
Or nothing, nothing, nothing
Am I something, something, something
Or nothing, nothing, nothing
Am I something, something, something
Or nothing, nothing, nothing
Am I something, something, something
Or nothing, nothing, nothing
Am I something, something, something
Or nothing, nothing, nothing

I carry this world upon my shoulders
And run away from all my fears
So scared of how I’m seen by others
Every time I break down in tears
Don’t lie and say you haven’t noticed
Or laugh and say I shouldn’t care
You say that I should just get past this
And I’m fighting things that just ain’t there

I wanted to be good
I wanted to be special
But now I know what a fool I’ve been
I’ll never risk it again

And no, I’m not feeling so fine
So I’ll brave the world on a different night
Coz I think it’s my time
To see the world in a different light

I just can’t seem to overcome my
Feelings that get stuck inside
Sometimes I wonder why I should try
Disguising things that I can’t hide
I know I shouldn’t let them break me
Coz trust leads to a broken heart
The thing that I just can’t let you see
Is I was broken from the start

I wanted to be good
I wanted to be special
But now I know what a fool I’ve been
I’ll never risk it again

And no, I’m not feeling so fine
So I’ll brave the world on a different night
Coz I think it’s my time
To see the world in a different light

I wanted to be good
I wanted to be special
But now I know what a fool I’ve been
I’ll never risk it again

And no, I’m not feeling so fine
So I’ll brave the world on a different night
Coz I think it’s my time
To see the world in a different light

When the lights burned out you were always right there
I was thinking about you all the time
Didn’t you know how much I used to love you
I could barely believe that you were mine

But we can’t go on like this
Coz you make me feel so small
So that’s the end
You’re not my friend
No more, no more

Coz you can push me over and you can pull me down
But I’m not gonna be your circus clown no more
You can push me over and you can pull me down
But I’m not gonna be your circus clown no more
No more

Our love has now ended, you have crushed me inside
But your putting me down won’t work again
You want to change me but what you can’t see
Is that you’ve broken me and it’s the end

But we can’t go on like this
Coz you make me feel so small
So that’s the end
You’re not my friend
No more, no more

Coz you can push me over and you can pull me down
But I’m not gonna be your circus clown no more
You can push me over and you can pull me down
But I’m not gonna be your circus clown no more
No more

You can push me over and you can pull me down
But I’m not gonna be your circus clown no more
Yeah you can push me over and you can pull me down
But I’m not gonna be your circus clown no more
No more

You should raise me up but you just drag me down
So I’m not gonna be your circus clown no more
No I’m not gonna be your circus clown no more
No I’m not gonna be your circus clown no more
No more

I thought my life could not have turned out worse
So full of broken homes and broken dreams
But what I should have realised at first
Is that this kid is tougher than she seems

I feel that road all paved with gold
Through those holes in my broken shoes
Coz there’s nothing near as powerful
As a kid with nothing to lose

We stuffed our lives into our bags that day
She promised me you might just be the one
I spent so long wishing that pain away
But you’re the smartest thing we’ve ever done

I feel that road all paved with gold
Through those holes in my broken shoes
Coz there’s nothing near as powerful
As a kid with nothing to lose

You showed me how to reach up for the stars
My future’s not a mirror of the past
I found the strength to wipe away the scars
These broken shoes are going somewhere fast

I feel that road all paved with gold
Through those holes in my broken shoes
Coz there’s nothing near as powerful
As a kid with nothing to lose

Oh you saw I’m more than just some broken shoes
A broken home don’t mean a broken soul
I thought then I had everything to lose
You’ve gone and made my half a person whole

I feel that road all paved with gold
Through those holes in my broken shoes
Coz there’s nothing near as powerful
As a kid with nothing to lose

Coz there’s nothing near as powerful
As a kid with nothing to lose
Nothing to lose

Why oh why can I not learn
How not to crash, how not to burn
Why oh why can I not learn
How not to fail at every turn

But they say
That it’s okay to run away sometimes
And it’s okay to say ‘I’m fine’
When all I ever want to do is cry
But I know
Every now and then I get a little afraid
Dragged down by the choices made
Knowing that I just won’t make the grade

Why oh why can I not see
What I should do and what I should be
Why oh why can I not see
What I should change so I can be me

But they say
That it’s okay to run away sometimes
It’s okay to say ‘I’m fine’
When all I ever want to do is cry
But I know
Every now and then I get a little afraid
Dragged down by choices made
Knowing that I just won’t make the grade

I only asked you for a second
I’m so tired of this song and dance
Why is it all tougher than I reckoned
All I asked for was a second second chance

But they say
That it’s okay to run away sometimes
It’s okay to say ‘I’m fine’
When all I ever want to do is cry
But I know
Every now and then I get a little afraid
Dragged down by choices made
Knowing that I just won’t make the grade
Oh, knowing that I just won’t make the grade

I won’t lie for you
I won’t cry for you
I won’t smash myself in two for you
Your whole life’s untrue
Like you never knew
And now you’re shocked that we are through
We are through

You can’t box me up like I’m your china doll
Coz if you play with me
Then you’re heading for a fall
No-one just swaps me out
And leaves me feeling small
So all your childish games won’t work on me at all

I’ve told you before
And right now I’m sure
I can’t play these games with you no more
You can’t drag me round
Then just toss me down
And leave me shattered on the ground
On the ground

You can’t box me up like I’m your china doll
Coz if you play with me
Then you’re heading for a fall
No-one just swaps me out
And leaves me feeling small
So all your childish games won’t work on me at all

You had me all wrong
Thinking I’m not strong
But your power over me has gone
I won’t ever be
That sweet doll you see
And now I’ll run till I am free
I am free

You can’t box me up like I’m your china doll
Coz if you play with me
Then you’re heading for a fall
No-one just swaps me out
And leaves me feeling small
So all your childish games won’t work on me at all

You can’t just box me up like I’m your china doll
Coz if you play with me
Then you’re heading for a fall
No-one just swaps me out
And leaves me feeling small
So all your childish games won’t work on me at all

I wish I could grow up today
And make my childhood go away
And just forget the pain
That I call my life
And every day you play the same moves
Watching me run and hide
While I’m praying for the peace
That I’ve never found inside

Oh my life’s not a game of chess
Full of pieces that can be lost
So tell me why you haven’t guessed
I’m not someone who you should cross
Coz that thing that you don’t see
Is how this pawn becomes a queen

I spend my days just dodging fights
And nurse my scars right through the night
Feeling like a pawn
You just sacrifice
But one day I’ll play my own game
When the world will know my name
And I won’t forget your words
Coz no-one hurts me twice

Oh my life’s not a game of chess
Full of pieces that can be lost
So tell me why you haven’t guessed
I’m not someone who you should cross
Coz that thing that you don’t see
Is how this pawn becomes a queen

You can’t put me in a corner
You can’t cut off my escape
I’m not some tiny pawn that you can lose
I’m the piece that you can’t take

My life’s not a game of chess
Full of pieces that can be lost
So tell me why you haven’t guessed
I’m not someone who you should cross
Coz that thing that you don’t see
That thing that you don’t see
Is that this pawn’s become
This pawn’s become a queen

That this pawn’s become a queen